Reason why I have to have this list:

1. 30 is bloody important, it is a tradition for people to make a hell lot big deal out of it. And I like traditions, well, a few of them when it falls in my interest of course, like women are really not supposed to work. Why can’t we just listen to the wise men?

2. I hate my current life. A change, in some form, needs to happen, I hate it. I hate it and I hate it. How come it doesn’t change already? 

3. Come on, what else I can do with it anyway, it’s pathetic, given my turning 30, other than socially announced that I’m a loser in  every way of life, why can’t I make fun of myself? At least some one gets a laugh out of it.

4. God I am nervous and feel the panic vibes ever since turning 29.

Rules on which the list is generated:

1. it has to be something that I can manage on my own, aka, within control and within vision limit, even short vision in this matter,  this will excluded things like world peace, or saving the ‘inconvenient truth’ about melting iceberg or getting married or crap like that, let’s face it, don’t count on other people, o, ‘try not be cynical’ probably needs to top my list, but who am I kidding here? This will technically lead to my next rules: 

2. Stick to be realistic, this is as crucial to this ‘project’ as wasabi to sushi, u don’t do something crazy like expecting your ‘character’ (pls gesture the air quote if you do a reading here) change to a lovable level,  and things that are intangible is not well received, and never will be.  30 is big enough no. to call a spade a spade.

3. And it must be socially announced. That’s what I’m doing here, isn’t it? one thing that I’m sure of myself is that I am not that kind of person who’d done anything well without supervision, a word-of-mouth, no matter what word is out of the mouth is helpful in some way to keep me on. And here we go, I’m sure this will be posted in my long-lost blog and a link from twitter. 

4. Let’s face it, it’s not ’60 things u must do before u die’; it’s rather a short-term project so let’s KISS, Keep it simple and short. One thing that does happen when you turning older, esp as old as 30, is that you run out time. You don’t have time to waste on someone you don’t love or something you don’t like and vice versa. Let’s do this once and for all.

All this crap being said, Last and the least, here we comes the list per se:

1. Bunjee jump at Macao tower (hopefully on March22, 2010). Yes this is where this list come from. Maybe when I was teen, I ‘ve always been yearn to do a bunjee jump, it used to be a fun like roller coaster, which also is something I always wanted to do only now too old to, and from 2 years ago, I seriously began to fancy a real bungee jump, not those fake one in the theme park, because, here we go the real reason,  this is the closest thing that I think I could get near to death. I heard myself here, and believe me, till now, even the darkest moment of my life, I had never thought about death, I mean the volunteer kind; and this won’t be the case either, it’s just that I need a venture to bring even hypothetically a little closer of my claimed boldness and ever-wanted sense of venture with the real me who’s utterly inwarded and cowarded. Location choice is easier, Macow tower is the highest commercial bungee at the moment, and it’s possible for me to reach it, and it’s not as easy as to suburban area of Beijing. so it’s the perfect amount venture for me, though it could be better to go to New Zealand to try the ever first bunjee, but remember rules 2, I compromise, happily.  

2. Tattoo,  somewhere between waist and upper hip. Always been a fancy, obsession rather.
3. Learn a new language. French is what I’m working on now, thou, given the physical and psychological situation of mine, it’s pending…
4. Ear piece. this is something I really want it done for a long while, and this is probably the easiest one to action upon, which we love on a to-do list,  but the pain and swell it promised is beyond me. I’m not that kind of person who’s looking for pain, the physical one is referred here.
5. Fix teeth. this is rather urgent and important, falling into the first quadrant of Stenphen Covey’s diagram. This is a long overdued task with very serious sequence, so I listed here for at least a shot. Health after all is the root of all evils.
6. Fix eyes. This is the origin of all my disbelief.
7. Find a real job. I have been twisted around this and there were times when I give a second, or even third, fourth…thought about this, and guess what do I get out from this hesitation? Turning 30 with a dead-end job where I have less and less reason to keep it on.
8. Travel to a new place that I’ve never been before. Bali, indonicia last year, and a few spots in Canada this oct. can’t complain too much about my opportunity. Only I finally make up my mind not wasting my time and AL on something that is never gonna happen. Anywhere is ok, tip is don’t wait for anyone or anything.
9. Jogging (not once a year like) this is the only workout that I once could dedicate to do and lasted it for a while. And it fits one of my favorite nature of things to do is that I can be, even encouraged to, be multifunctional while doing this, for example, how about giving my ipod another fresh-air walk-out. The only problem, well its main problem, is the center of everything-sloth, it cause the difficulty of kickoff and maintenance. And maybe another personal one, that it might stronger my leg which I can really live without.
10. Stop listing, get a life. This doesn’t fit the Rules, Well, who is having time for such a useless cynical full of rubbish list if she/he got a real life, I mean. Bottom line is, I want to be good too.

Note: It took me almost 2 years to finish this list, from the very idea of having a list which starts from a real Bunjee jump; and till this very moment, when I feel yet again to be stuck there in the middle of no where, only this time, I feel right at the bottom, very cold and real, really couldn’t be worse like, and if I have to see the silver line, that will be exact the same---------it couldn’t get worse, and it shan’t do.